I Wish it was Love
Someday’s I look at what I owe and it takes my breath away. Not like a lover you are excited to see, more like the archnemisis that wants to crush you.
It can feel so overwhelming when I step back and take it in. When I look at it all in one shot I realize the mountain I have created for myself to climb. However, I can live with that daunting task. I can take on that challenge.
What takes away my breath is that bill that shows up for $500 that I was not expecting. OMG, how will I do it? I’m running out of Peters to pay Paul. I thought I had enough on my irregular income and now I find out I don’t. I went from feeling good that I can make the money stretch to how the hell will I make it stretch.
Suddenly I’m fully aware of my deep breathing, my nostrils taking in as much air as they can. Calm myself. I must not panic.
I will make it work. I always do. I have no idea how, but I will.
Tomorrow brings new hope. Tomorrow the sun will rise and I will tackle this mountain again. I will win. Even if I must remind myself to breathe….
Whatever you do… Don’t Let Go!
Well I’ve been telling my story and before I get into the next phase of it, I thought I’d update those cool little graphs I put in my widgets. This way you (and I) can be reminded of how far I have come. The way I see it, if I can hang in there, so can you.
I’ve noticed when we focus on where we are, we forget where we started. Kind of like climbing a mountain and seeing the peek so far off you get discouraged until you look down and see how far you have come… (not that I’ve climbed any mountains lately but I’m gonna assume it might be the same) 🙂
Or maybe when you are so full and realize you can’t possibly eat that last piece of pizza until you realize you already at 7 slices. (Hmm, maybe that doesn’t work either….) Anyways, you get the point.
You see, as crazy as my $1.5 million of debt looks to me, I am amazed that I’m down $300,000 in the past year and half. Granted, I’ve sold some things and plan on selling more things. But hey, it all counts. It leaves my debt column and that is what counts. Now that I’ve got an a small income coming in, I can pay what I can which will keep helping too.
The hard part is to not get discouraged. I know it will take me years to get out of this mess but I am determined. I hope you are determined too. Don’t worry, I’ll make sure there is plenty of room on my rope for both of us to hang on too. We can do it! We will do it!
Why am I doing this blog?
Like many of you, I fell into the trap of taking on debt to not only get the things I wanted but to invest in my future. Sounds funny to say that I went into debt to make money, yet that is what I did.
I even did something more odd, I left a well paying job with lots of financial potential for a life that became 7 days a week of working for nothing and losing it all. I didn’t lose it traveling, buying things or even enjoying it. Quite the opposite.
I’m writing this blog to share my journey. How I ended up where I am and how I plan to get out of my $1.8 million in debt. Yes, you read that right. I woke up one day in some serious debt with no income. But I am crawling my way out. One dollar at a time.
Feel free to follow along and share your journey. Maybe we can help inspire others by letting them know…
They are NOT Alone! ~ You are NOT Alone!